Discovering My Inner Muse

Live life more fully today than you did yesterday.

Original quote by me.

I have seen many YouTube videos and read {the excerpts of} books suggesting to choose just one word to theme your year/life around. I liked this sentence more than I liked just a word for a mantra. But I guess if I were to squash that sentence down into one word, it would be “INSPIRE”. I want to help other people grow into more than what they were, see that they have the potential to do so much more than they have been. I think I have this desire partially because I want to inspire myself to do more, try more things, stop saying that “I can’t” and instead just try.  I came up with that sentence as my mantra and it just fit me. Fit my desires, fit my goals, just fit.

I have been inspired by so many people in my life. More than I can count or credit. Haven’t we all taken inspiration from nearly everyone we have ever met? Inspired us to do better, inspired us to not act like them (yeah, I don’t really want to be like that person in the fast lane driving like there is no tomorrow for any of us) or maybe the individual inspired us to wear a new shade of lipstick. Inspired us to be more than what we were. My hope is that I am able to positively inspire those that come into my life.

Recent Inspirations:

Kara Benz from BohoBerry.com – she inspired me to start a Bullet Journal #BuJo. I first tried to use my disc bound notebook (that I still love by the way) for a few months, but I found that I kept removing pages from it because it wasn’t just right. I didn’t allow myself to make mistakes. I didn’t allow myself to be imperfect. I know more than anyone that I am not perfect, but I looked at the things I was doing and it just wasn’t good enough, so I’d remove it, try again, and remove it again. I was getting nowhere except frustrated and feeling less and less creative. Kara would show her bullet journals on her YouTube channel (here is one showing the bullet journal basics). I was fascinated by the bound journal with the dot-grid paper. Bound journals scared me. I hated the bound composition books from school. Even as a kid, I would mess up on a page then rip it out and hate the book and want to start over with a new book.

But I never felt like I could use a bound journal. How could I rip out the pages if they weren’t perfect in a bound book? A pretty bound book. If I ripped out the pages seeking for perfection, the book would become imperfect and I would be caught in a never-ending cycle!

Aren’t we always our own worst critics?

The more I watched her videos and saw that perfection wasn’t the object (see this video), but instead giving myself the flexibility of being who I wanted to be and just living life. I was also reminded that I had to try. I had to practice. I remember her saying that she had been working on her handwriting for just a short amount of time and it wasn’t where she wanted it to be. Perhaps to her it wasn’t exactly what she wanted, but to me, it was beautiful.

Clark Kegley on YouTube is actually where I first heard the idea of creating “One Word” for myself. His videos have been a HUGE inspiration for helping me to forget the fear and just do it. He also motivated me to start journaling. I  have wanted to write in a journal, I think I should,  I can see that it would have a positive impact on my life, but fear of actually discovering who I am kept me from just doing it. Sounds strange right? But we all have things we don’t like about ourselves and we try and hide those away. I was afraid that as I started writing, I would have to write the things that I hated most about myself. (What if someone read it after I am dead and thought I was a horrible person?) I had to tell myself ‘just stop’. If I didn’t like myself that much, then change it. But change it by writing in a journal so I’d have a documented process of what it is I was trying to accomplish. In other words, I told myself to “get over yourself”.

I married the ideas of writing in a journal as suggested by Clark and keeping a bullet journal for tasking, calendar items as well as collections from Kara. After a time of struggling with the disc bound journal where I would remove pages all the time since they weren’t perfect – so I would never write one the backs of pages. I decided to bite the bullet (I am so sorry for that terrible pun) and get a bound notebook so maybe I could let go of some of my hangups about expecting perfection. I got the Leuchtturm 1917 A5 Dot Grid in Purple . Because I liked it. I started out trying to follow the way that bullet journals were initially created, yearly, monthly, weekly, daily.  But… I don’t have a lot to plan that varies week to week. I liked making the layouts of the weekly spreads, so I used them for practice in layouts and ideas. I hope that one day when I need to track day-to-day activities and tasks, I may rely more heavily on these pages to be functional.

I discovered something – as I used my Bullet Journal on a daily basis, regardless if I use the planner pages or not, my creativity slowly blossomed once again. I regained the creative spirit lost to the minutia of day-to-day life.

I have an innate desire to create, but somewhere along the day in and day out of life, I had lost my creativity. The truth is I have actually held myself back because I didn’t feel like I was good enough to do anything, I compared myself to all the others out there who had put in the time and effort to do the things that they were doing. So what if I didn’t need the planner pages? I used the Bullet Journal to keep lists together and generally just create.

I decided that I didn’t have to be perfect. That was a wonderful feeling.

I was practicing on an empty page in my Bullet Journal with a new calligraphy pen and ink. I didn’t know what to write, but I wanted to write something. I just let my hand flow. Once I was finished writing, I decided it was really true.

The Bullet Journal has Reignited My Creativity.

The bullet journal brought back my creativity.

My creativity was reignited by the Bullet Journal.

The Bullet Journal reignited my creativity.

I am not a bullet journal purist. I don’t use it as it was created. I use it for me and it has changed my life for the better. I had forgotten how good it felt to be creative. I had forgotten how good it feels to draw and paint, and write. None of it was perfect. Perfection didn’t matter. There were pages that I hated from the moment I finished them. If I really wanted that page I either 1) learned to live with the page ‘as is’ or 2) I turned the page and did it again.

Thank you, Kara for showing me your work and opening the path to be creative again. And thank you, Clark for giving me the confidence to try. I look forward everyday to being creative in some way.

Live life more fully today than you did yesterday

Please leave me a comment on how you reignited your creative spirit or what you do to express your creativity.



I have compiled a list of items I used in this post if you are interested in any of them.

 

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All opinions expressed were solely mine and from my heart.

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